One more candle and a trip around the sun.

On Wednesday of this week I celebrate 31 years on this spinning blue rock.  Which, for those who know me (and a certain prediction I made when I was in my 20's about my 30th) , is miraculous in and of itself.  

When I turned 30  friends were concerned that I would follow through with my prediction. I had a bad year, I was hopelessly single, following a bad break-up, job is stagnant and just plan felt sick of it all.   However on our way to the Hoffbrau Haus I told my friends that when I woke up that morning I had decided that things would be different this coming year and tonight was "Baptism by Beer".  I was going to let go and just have fun and not worry (one of the hardest things for me to do).  Sparing you all the details the night was fun and I enjoyed myself.  

Now, a year later I find myself taking stock.  I have lightened up allot.   I am enjoying life a little more and now I met a lovely girl who thinks the world of me (God Bless her!!)  and I feel the same.  

I find myself having to reevaluate my path, my life.....<Sigh>   AGAIN!!  And I fear slipping back to my old ways of worrying.  I fear about the future...making a wrong choice.  With  the economy the way it is what is the safe bet.  I know I must have faith that God has a plan but wouldn't mind a little nudge or 2.  I feel that I am at a crossroads and that I must make a decision SOON about which way to go. Both choices are unclear both full of potential  Happiness AND Sorrow; making the choosing very difficult.  I feel like I am lost in a forest on a starless, moonless night with no compass and just the clothes on my back.  Howver lost I am I feel that I am in a good place just frustrating all the uncertainty.

So, to in a positive note I've drawn the following conclusion:
 One year later I am better than I was 2 years ago, albeit confused BUT Happy....Very Happy.  I only hope that these continuing voyages around the sun only get better.  


The Wild (OLDer) Knight

Taking a chance.

Last Saturday the Wild Knight took a BIG chance for him.    While at a local eatery with a group of  friends he strikes up a conversation with a rather attractive and funny waitress.   throughout the course of his meal our noble but shy knight realizes that he is NOT shy. Words are flowing from his mouth like water over a cliff.   His  hands are not clammy, he appears witty with a close view on charming.  "This is not possible," thinks the young Knight. "For she is great of beauty and grace, surly this must be a dream?!?! I do not meet girls such as this and speak with such conviction and humor?!?!  

As the meal draws to a close and checks are being paid, some of said friends notice our the young knight's interest in the fair maiden and encourage me to ask her out.   "RIIIIIIGHT", thinks the Knight, "just what I need to end a great day ANOTHER Rejection, Another reminder that he is a Schmuck."  

A prayer and a coin flip later.   He is walking up to said maiden, NOT with fear or dread  but knowing that yes or no saith she he has conquered his fear.  He asks her out....She says........... YES!!!  (You thought it was no.  Come on some of you did???)   BUT not only did she say YES; also that the errant knight seemed like a "nice guy and fun to talk to."  

To wit the knight does a mental double take make sure she is not talking to some buff guy behind him. (there was not).  For it was the knight to which she spoke to. Numbers were exchanged.  Later that week so were email messages. A first date happened and  the knight and the young maiden found they had allot in common. This lead to a late night for the Knight with the promise from the maiden that "we should do this again....SOON!" Now the knight is STILL doubting this (though not as much.) "Who is this girl, is she feeling alright."  The knight thinks then  and realizes that he complains about the bad and now is doubting the good being placed in his life.  So he embraces the moment and a second date is planned.

Unfortunately he was so excited he got little sleep that night.  YEAH Caffeine!!! 

All because he took a risk and he allowed his personality to spring forth.  HOLY CRAP!!!

Here's to taking more chances and kicking fear in the BALLS with a steel tipped boot with spikes on the toe!!!

The Wild Knight.
 

A Wild Knight-An new beginning!!

Hi  all:  

Well I've decided to start a blog.   Why you may ask?  Well the answer is I don't really know myself, but I figured what the heck.  I figured it might be a good outlet for me to practice writing, maybe vent a little or just share a funny story.   You might ask why I called my blog  "A Wild Knight",  Well the obvious is a play on a wild night, but also "Wild" is part of one of my nicknames "Wildmankevo"  the Knight part as most of you know I am a Knight of Columbus. 

This is a new beginning for me in many ways.   A lot of change has happened in my life I've been single for about 2 years now, I am losing weight (yeah) but more importantly I am coming to terms with me.  Liking myself and just letting myself enjoy life.  Sadly I realize this NOW, after college when I could of had MORE Fun but HEY better late then never right??? 

What made me conscience of this change is a friend on a trip recently that said I was fun to be around and that I am much more calmer than in college ( I am paraphrasing.)   I thought "hey!! he's right" (he most always is.)

I am relaxed and calm?!?!?    I began asking myself how this happened?!?!   What I think happened is: one I started losing weight (bost of confedence) and a buying new clothes (hey even for a guy this is a good thing).  Second during this past Lent I increased my prayer life which in turn led me to realize I am taking life WAY to bloody serious.   Thirdly it was a camping trip that may me realize I am like and not only that but I can have fun in any situation so long as I am open and have no fear. 

And I will sign off with that my friends be open and in the words of Blessed Pope John Paul II  "Be not afraid."  

Thanks for reading!!!

The Wild Knight